a daylight dream

Sometimes you just have to open up, to accept, to make the best out of everything. Sometimes your dreams and your passions are too intangible to be real. Perhaps your purposes are only attitudes and feelings you wish to attain every single day. Maybe it's your dream to love, care, support, believe in every moment and you're lost over the fact that you cannot find yourself in a particular picture. Everyone around might be already taking real steps toward a tangible purpose but here you are, lost, unable to function without a goal. Just be sure that you're not alone, and that there are many like you. Some people you don't know have no idea where they are heading, but they want to learn in every step, show strength in every lesson, be passionate about every single detail their minds are aware of. And that's okay. The world needs you. The world needs to be appreciated and loved. Your soul makes a difference, and it (presumably) makes God happy. He created you, and yo...

Umm, I've been having a couple of bad days here; my body suddenly decided to turn against me somehow. It even sounds strange to say that, but it's either me exaggerating each sensation every other human being doesn't normally feel, or my body spinning out of control. Suddenly, I just started getting really anxious somehow, over everything and it was thing kind of feeling I couldn't control no matter what. I kept telling myself to be kind, amazing, to keep being gentle but to no avail, I hated myself in a way unimaginable and it made me feel sick. I worried over everything; my studies, future, health, family issues.. everything felt so surreal and illusional.. like why do I even live in the first place? And then I heard about this European Hijab Ban and I started fretting. I know I should be strong but my anxiety gets triggered by these kind of events. Sometimes I believe I'm really mad and I should seek some mental health assistance. Every single day, I hear rea...

I've always had a problem with bad days, which means I felt victimised by them. Every time I'd wake up feeling inherently not right, I would just instinctively know that whatever events that should occur during that day would be stressing. A few years ago, recurring bad days were a reason I actually started loathing myself, when bad things started to happen, I'd think like: "God hates me. I don't deserve this life. These things are happening to me because I'm a bad person and I deserve to be punished." I would end up crying, locking myself with thoughts full of hatred and self-doubt and it didn't exactly make the bad days stop coming, in fact, it made me more susceptible and weakened. Somehow, this changed. I woke up on Sunday, looked out of the window and saw gusty winds blowing with this sickening sand which suddenly made me feel dreary because I'm kind of sensitive to these kind of weather changes, and just a glimpse of a beautiful sunris...

Sunlight peeping through. I am definitely a sunlight person, not in that fiery, sparkly way but the way I just feel at home under those illuminated rays. Even moonlight has this beautiful, solemn aura in it. I love visibility, I love how those light rays make it less difficult for everything to just be, to be seen the way it truly is. It allows us beings to just watch our environment without the bias we use to judge ourselves and others, and it's the most liberating feeling in the world. Under the sunshine, I usually feel my problems thaw, the barricades I build during moments of anxiety and sadness break down, consequently releasing clouds of enlightenment. When the sun shines, the sky feels more blue, the clouds more illuminated, the beauty easier to perceive. I'm like a sunflower, always seeking the light. Always getting out of classes to allow my face to touch and feel the warmth and the comfort of the sun shining down on me, and it's such an exuberant, indescr...

Hello friends! It's been a nice week, thankfully. I managed to stay blissfully productive and positive, even though the change I'm experiencing these days is profound and it's been two years since I had actually felt busy! Of course, my anxiety messed my perception of workload and caused me to feel worried and irritated, but I'm glad I'm recovering and healing my mind to accept the world's happenings. Our age now doesn't allow us to stay idle; our society is too dynamic in miscellaneous ways and there is no time nor energy to be wasted in that prospect. However, we have mismanaged this situation and allowed ourselves to experience burnout, stress, depression and restlessness in order to remain competitive in our workplaces, schools, families and all other institutions. Unfortunately, this harms both our mental and physical health in many ways. It wrecks our hormonal balance, distorts our ability to listen to our intuition, creates this havoc of a work-l...

I know I haven't been posting much these couple of days since I was dealing with some issues of my own.. everything is happening so fast lately, and spring twists an ethereal beauty into my disposition and attitude towards everything and I cannot be more grateful.. the weather is captivating, the calyxes are starting to sprout with emerald-green leaflets that look so beautiful, so full of hope and youth! It's all happening so fast that the marvel I experience each day is such a simple one, one that brushes my soul lightly, imprints a recurring joy.. one that I shall experience in the springs of my lifetime. I'm so thankful that I've been granted a lifetime to watch so many springs. :) I've also been enjoying work immensely.. I love meeting the teachers I'm assisting and assimilating their profound experience, their pleasant teaching styles and inspiring icareers. When I'm at school, the difference those teachers make affects me lavishly, and somehow,...

February had been magical, and I say that every month but it had truly been transforming for me. The weather is warmer, the south eastern winds are taking charge, allowing the golden breezes to follow. Everybody says spring winds are usually green, but in February, they're rather golden, carrying the fragrances of tropical rainforests from the south; fresh rain and grass, alluring humidity and clouds. It's so beautiful to feel the world anticipating the change, acting a little timid and afraid to let all of those winter routines go... but it will embrace it soon enough and burst in rapture. :) My anxiety levels dropped down too quickly and sometimes, it's difficult to believe that I'm still me. I'm not worried at all, I'm living and loving the present moment and exerting what I can to make the best out of it. Some days are good, others are unproductive and hazy, but overall, all's good. I feel as if the world is ready to accept my difference, and tha...

Hello friends! It's been a busy week and I enjoyed it immensely even though I didn't have enough time to rejuvenate.. I usually relax by stretching my body and writing poetry. But it was a helpful change, I'm so glad that the world around me is aspiring to help me to embrace the change and learn from it. I must admit it's a beautiful experience. :) Last year was tough; I was drowning in rough waters of self-hate and the tribulations of recovery. However, it had been a year to learn from, to improve and grow. I've always had problems with concentration and focus and I had worked on it painstakingly the past year. Through studies, I tried to focus, concentrate, allow my mind to widen its scope in an efficient way and it had been amazing. I didn't know that our minds can create such wonders! You can empower your mind and trust it because it's overflowing with capabilities and potentials. Once you feed your thoughts with enrapturing and intriguing ideas,...

Tell yourself that you're honoured to be alive, to have a pair of eyes that can see through the blueness of the sky, freeness of the birds, flow of the waters. You have a pair of ears that can hear soft melodies, laughs of loved ones, chirping birds, and enchanting quotes being read to you at night. You have a voice that can speak beauty, truth, positivity and charm. You are granted with blessings and acknowledging them satisfies the many quests of happiness. You are honoured with your skin that enjoys the warmth, scrutinises the chills, allows you to feel love through the touch of your friends and family, makes you dextrously create art with your fingertips, makes you draw and colour, write life-changing sentences and affirmations. You can choose to be kind in this ruthless world. You can choose to love in a society based on hate and criticism. You are unique with your beliefs, values and personality. Stand up and show yourself, some people will shame and hurt you, but othe...

You exist. You breathe. You are a universe of overflowing energies. And these energies should make you feel warm, connected, grounded. These feelings should make you feel like you belong to the world within yourself, because they are your only genuine guide, leading you to the most ultimate pathway you should take. Your intuition is the only thing affected by you, by your own energies, unlike your mind which is exposed to the external environment surrounding you. Your mind shifts constantly and responds to the miscellaneous ideas and thoughts everywhere. However, there's your intuition, the reflection of your soul, your true purpose, your only connection to the divine. Listening to yourself will be the best possible decision you can take. Taking your random feelings for granted will lead you to losing your ground, your heart will no longer connect with your mind, and you will be detached from your purpose, your passion, your existence. Trust your body. Feed it when it'...