a daylight dream

These past few weeks have been miraculously amazing, and finally, I got the change I've been  craving for a long time. And to be honest, those little adventures make life incredibly worthwhile. Firstly, I have changed both emotionally and physically. I'm no longer so anxious about those minute details of the future and instead, letting things go accordingly to God's will. I have shifted my focus on the present moment and the little joys that purify my heart from the inside. An illustration would be that I haven't studied at all this winter vacation and I don't feel so nervous about it. I mean, what is the point of reading textbooks you're not enjoying? I am not interested in reading about management or economical resources to be honest, and my past self would have made me put my nose in those books, wasting time doing nothing beneficial. I'm taking my time relishing the sunshine in the balcony, writing poems and chapters of my story, reading some nice book...

I used to fear a lot of things in my life. I used to fear the future. I felt so small, so disabled and vulnerable in the world of my tomorrow. Fear made me believe that there were no opportunities in my future, and that I'd remain the person I am today. I pictured myself in a world full of competition, poverty, war and distrust. How was I going to overcome the obstacles with the dreams of the present? The elements of my personality? The truth is, fear didn't allow me to hope. I couldn't imagine that I would flourish in the days leading to that future, I would be exposed to numerous experiences, opportunities to grow, succeed and fail. There was room to learn but being afraid made me run away and hide, adhere to my weaknesses and shame them, instead of accepting who I really am, the origins of what happens to me, the fact that everything occurs for a predestined reason. If you are afraid too, it's not always your fault. Sometimes people stand in your way, they hur...

It was my first time to see a real blossom tree! I literally cried. It's too beautiful. I am definitely a spring personage. I used to be fun, careless summer girl but I've changed substantially. I mean, spring does give me this ethereal bliss that makes me wake up in the morning with a smile as I hear the chirps of the blackbirds and the foreign migrating ones, smell the fragrances of blossoming calyxes as well as the clairvoyant colours of sunshine! I literally breathe in the life of spring, let it paint me in peach, pink and ultramarine blue. I was going to write a post about things I want to improve about myself, but then I felt obliged to express gratitude and joy about the arrival of spring here.. it's certainly February still, but I've seen patches of dandelions erupting, and that is certainly a sign of the warmer and more beautiful days awaiting. :) I'm so thankful that the bitter, cold days are over, and I'm willing to be better this spring; m...