a daylight dream

I expected a different scheme of events, yet still, I believed in miracles. You gave me pain, disappointments, loneliness and shame but the other side was vulnerability, love and wholeness. You made me graduate and celebrate the stepping stones in my life. You made me open my heart to people who mean the most to me. You made me confront my inner critic and fight anyone who invalidates my worth. You made me hold on to love. Thank you, 2020. January Applying to Intelligent Change in London and showing up for my heart's desires. Watching Frozen II and understanding more about the nature of who I am through the movie. Meeting my wonderful friend, Mariam, and having conversations about dreams and the trajectory of transformation. Receiving an email from Mimi Ikonn herself, thanking me for applying to Intelligent Change, which made me realise how close we are to achieving whatever we wish for. Witnessing my grandmother's death; watching her ego resist the soul's tendency to shift...

I've been experiencing a subtle, yet inscrutable feeling lately. A sensation which keeps my eyes open-wide at night when I should be sleeping. I keep trying to gulp it down, but it overflows outside of me, riveting my heart into a sparking wildfire which I cannot tame. I'm not overwhelmed for I've experienced it before. I smile at the memory, back when I couldn't sleep for several nights picturing my love manifesting into the world with the most beautiful intentions. I smile at the familiarity of this feeling, knowing that it's hereto transform me at last. How I've missed feeling this way; this limitlessness, this freedom, this inexplicable need to create, give and dream. I know what it is. This is selfishness transmuting into selflessness. This is suffering liberating itself to love and equanimous joy. This is all the difficult, afflictive days turning into ones defined by hope and acceptance for all that is about to happen, even the more challenging days. This...