Dear Journal,
"17.06.2016 My mind shift is not altruistic enough for this world as its too huge, too soaked up in shame, rust and ignorance. What could I do to change it? I feel this threatening duty imposed on me, to actually reform our world. But how could I do it when I need the reform myself? I'm too bad and needy myself. I feel like I'm slowly disintegrating.. And become a part of this unmerciful society. I want to change a lot. It's so discouraging to live all your life a mere consumer, unable to give back, and too tired of counting the bounties and just not able to repay them. Even when I grow up and seek independence, how will I ever be able to give back? How will I bring justice and enlightenment to those in need? I haven't discovered myself yet, I believe that hitherto, I shall find my cause, but that feels so far away. It's a shame to see that many girls my age had already impacted the world. I feel so small. I learned a lot this year, and a deep scar has been im...