a daylight dream

A dose of sunrises. I usually detest Januaries because they are beginnings, empty beginnings that open a book of blank white pages ready to be filled with memories, moments of happiness and sadness. This whole feeling of emptiness agitates me, and makes me anxious because I have no idea how to fill the book with worthwhile words and captivating occurrences.. and yes, as I had expected, I lived through the first weeks of January in anxiety and confusion. I didn't know where I was going, there were no signs, the obscurities never unravelled, they stayed vague through the chilly days and fearful nights. Two weeks ago, I was so close to relapsing. I was a silhouette full of darkness, compressed anger and frustration. My energy was busting and exploding fumes that choked me until I grew weak and vulnerable; there was only hatred to feel towards myself. Nothing was enough. There was no pleasure in the accomplishments, in the rising suns and the shimmering stars. Where was I going...

Say you need not life to awaken you. Say you exist aloud in the silence. Say you need not your eyes, To ascertain what's true. Say there is beauty incomparable, One you need not define. Despite the aches in the darkest nights, Say you need not life to survive. As I feel you in my presence alone, You resonate in a dimension so clear. And what not occurs to you,  Affects me wildly. Say you need not a medium, For your words to reach, The depths I have not explored. The distance between our hearts, Is an infinite magnitude of distances, Stretched so wide, so far in the horizons. Say you need not but the two of us, In a sharp awareness of what's lost. You, in loss of what revolves around the earthly, And I, missing everything by your ghost. Say you need not the lyrics of my sleep, To appear among the omens, I recall in the lust of my dreams. I say I need not, but words Amidst a concussion of thoughts To reveal our unearthly co...

I can allow my soul To rupture into a million pieces And form a constellation To light your way home You walk in the shineless street Searching for a meaning A flow to resonate, to set free But the inside of your eyes Is a glimpse of a midnight dream Only thoroughly remembered  When you wake up in tears I'll allow your hand To intertwine with mine Like branches of ivy That stay green all the time Through your soft breathing Along the lyrics of your murmurs A scar will stop bleeding A soul shall be left enraptured We need no boundary nor limit As long as we're guided by the oneness of our spirit We can soar along the shadowy clouds Draw curves against the blue velvet sky Just as you stop believing And your faith burns to ashes We'll follow lightly and touch the ground Walk again, the lightless streets To find purpose in a new path And the many roads on your palm Can only lead us to the home in our hearts.