a daylight dream

longing. the emptiness of beds when you’ve felt the oozing sweetness of being next to another. the shallow waters of my own breath when it felt the depth of being mingled with yours. and I’m not sure. why? I feel longing at the pit of my very bones. a longing for everything I’ll never have— the infinite in those temporary steps. no matter how hard I try to make what I love ethereally alive, there are things I attach to with your body embracing mine. 

it’s been exactly one month since I arrived to Poland and for some reason, I feel it’s been ages away from who I was. some of my perpetual anxiety is fading away slowly. and there’s relaxation in the slowness of snowfall and how it glistens in the sunlight so valiantly. I’m here to reflect on what I’d been up to these days.    a lot of positive changes. a lot of closeness and intimacy and overarching love I cannot contain in that very little body of mine. working I’m on my way to developing a solid business plan for my educational entrepreneurial venture. I’m lately giving lessons that are focused on developing creative intelligence and expression in my learners. it’s been really exciting to see them so pumped up and excited for my online lessons, watching them do wonders. probably in one month or so, I might be able to curate a programme that is versatile and is beyond academic perspectives. I hope to develop a brand identity and name by then. right now, it’s only me with my ...