a daylight dream

I was supposed to post this by the end of August, but just couldn't. My reality by that time was dismantling and I couldn't really get myself to reflect subjectively. August had been the same ever since 2010. But now that some time has passed and a recognition of presence returned, I can reflect upon it all positively. August has simply taught me that my fears are never the sole face of truth. Here is what I planned on posting but did not. "So here is August, ending in a swift pace. This month always reminds me of how much time can truly speed, forcing me to cherish beautiful moments as they pass by. I'm fascinated by all of those momentary memories, as when one holds them close, they fill the mind with beauty and gratitude, it's not a practice to be taken for granted, by any means. It had been such a beautiful month, though I experienced quite a few challenges. The beginning was stormed with an episode of disconnection and miscommunication; ...

I am writing this as I’m in the balcony, breathing in the September warm nightly air, resting from a tiring and sleepless flight back, indulging my existence in the timeless present, feeling free from judgments  and fears. So, I’m back. Here and now. I feel as if I had been sucked into a tunnel this summer and now I’m timelessly on the surface— everything seems just as still as I left it. This summer comes to me as if it were a glimpse of a dream and now I’ve woken up, embracing the morning light vividly. It feels as if that summer never existed and I was caught up in some beautiful realm for a while. Yet, the impact is here— the smile, love and rewards of trying hard to let it go. It’s all here, in the present, in my soul. I’m laughing at myself currently, shaking my head at how weak I was just a few days ago. I see my agonising fears and this deadly anxiety toppling upon me and how they’ve faded into nothingness in reality. In the airport, I was  smiling  b...