a daylight dream

Stay before leaving. Stay with your whole heart and soul. Stay with your laughter and fears. Stay along the tribulations and joy, with eyes that keep observing from the open windows of your home. Stay even if you’re hurt, because you’ve got a purpose as you stand in your place. Even if you’re being ripped apart with every single step you take, your journey is being put into action. Perhaps this is only inception to something beautiful. Just as the calyxes start to erupt from their buds; their colours meagrely bland and fragrance young. Things don’t always appear to be appealing from the first glance. Stay because you’re already here. Stay for the sake of hope and the thrill of optimism, not more. Maybe you could only stay searching whether this life turns out to be worthwhile or not— but you can as well choose to prove it yourself. Stay wholeheartedly before the airplanes take off to the sky. Stay immersed. Stay true. Stay you.

I wanted to talk about challenges I’ve been facing the last couple of months. Why? Because I believe writing about it merges reality into luscious beliefs of positive outcomes, which is a therapeutic practice, isn’t it? I’ve recently read about a concept called “amor fati” . It’s simply loving fate, with all its twists, downturns and celebrations. I experienced some sort of epiphany while reading about it, because it’s exactly what I aspire to do in my life. It’s hard, yet typically worthwhile. So here are the challenges that will someday turn out to be blessings. Health — Thankfully, my health is so much better this year but it’s only because I prioritised holistic healing over anything else. I realised that the process of reclamation takes time, which made me accept not feeling well on some days. Improving my health eased anxiety and allowed joy to blossom. There is more energy to struggle and fight as well as laugh and weep. So many lessons have been learned and I’m g...