a daylight dream

Hello friends! It's been a busy week and I enjoyed it immensely even though I didn't have enough time to rejuvenate.. I usually relax by stretching my body and writing poetry. But it was a helpful change, I'm so glad that the world around me is aspiring to help me to embrace the change and learn from it. I must admit it's a beautiful experience. :) Last year was tough; I was drowning in rough waters of self-hate and the tribulations of recovery. However, it had been a year to learn from, to improve and grow. I've always had problems with concentration and focus and I had worked on it painstakingly the past year. Through studies, I tried to focus, concentrate, allow my mind to widen its scope in an efficient way and it had been amazing. I didn't know that our minds can create such wonders! You can empower your mind and trust it because it's overflowing with capabilities and potentials. Once you feed your thoughts with enrapturing and intriguing ideas,...

Tell yourself that you're honoured to be alive, to have a pair of eyes that can see through the blueness of the sky, freeness of the birds, flow of the waters. You have a pair of ears that can hear soft melodies, laughs of loved ones, chirping birds, and enchanting quotes being read to you at night. You have a voice that can speak beauty, truth, positivity and charm. You are granted with blessings and acknowledging them satisfies the many quests of happiness. You are honoured with your skin that enjoys the warmth, scrutinises the chills, allows you to feel love through the touch of your friends and family, makes you dextrously create art with your fingertips, makes you draw and colour, write life-changing sentences and affirmations. You can choose to be kind in this ruthless world. You can choose to love in a society based on hate and criticism. You are unique with your beliefs, values and personality. Stand up and show yourself, some people will shame and hurt you, but othe...

You exist. You breathe. You are a universe of overflowing energies. And these energies should make you feel warm, connected, grounded. These feelings should make you feel like you belong to the world within yourself, because they are your only genuine guide, leading you to the most ultimate pathway you should take. Your intuition is the only thing affected by you, by your own energies, unlike your mind which is exposed to the external environment surrounding you. Your mind shifts constantly and responds to the miscellaneous ideas and thoughts everywhere. However, there's your intuition, the reflection of your soul, your true purpose, your only connection to the divine. Listening to yourself will be the best possible decision you can take. Taking your random feelings for granted will lead you to losing your ground, your heart will no longer connect with your mind, and you will be detached from your purpose, your passion, your existence. Trust your body. Feed it when it'...

Dreams are usually my dearest form of company. Too many nights before I sleep, I imagine myself translating those dreams into reality, feeling the sheer pleasure and enthusiasm as I become the person I wish I could be. However, at times my dreams overwhelm me and I become too attached to them.. the ambition turns to a troublesome anxiety that keeps me restless and turns my goals into perfectionistic realities that don't usually occur in real life.. I become restless, lost in terms of what I'm supposed to do to make those dreams come true. I spend the night planning my days to be more productive and achievement-oriented, but most of the time, they never go as planned. I am ambitious, and it is a blessing. I love conquering the hardships, pushing myself past my zeal passionately, going through enjoyable experiences. My dreams shift from being a teacher to a headmistress, a holistic nutritionist.. a life coach.. a therapist.. an adventurous naturalist.. and my head swirls u...

These past few weeks have been miraculously amazing, and finally, I got the change I've been  craving for a long time. And to be honest, those little adventures make life incredibly worthwhile. Firstly, I have changed both emotionally and physically. I'm no longer so anxious about those minute details of the future and instead, letting things go accordingly to God's will. I have shifted my focus on the present moment and the little joys that purify my heart from the inside. An illustration would be that I haven't studied at all this winter vacation and I don't feel so nervous about it. I mean, what is the point of reading textbooks you're not enjoying? I am not interested in reading about management or economical resources to be honest, and my past self would have made me put my nose in those books, wasting time doing nothing beneficial. I'm taking my time relishing the sunshine in the balcony, writing poems and chapters of my story, reading some nice book...

I used to fear a lot of things in my life. I used to fear the future. I felt so small, so disabled and vulnerable in the world of my tomorrow. Fear made me believe that there were no opportunities in my future, and that I'd remain the person I am today. I pictured myself in a world full of competition, poverty, war and distrust. How was I going to overcome the obstacles with the dreams of the present? The elements of my personality? The truth is, fear didn't allow me to hope. I couldn't imagine that I would flourish in the days leading to that future, I would be exposed to numerous experiences, opportunities to grow, succeed and fail. There was room to learn but being afraid made me run away and hide, adhere to my weaknesses and shame them, instead of accepting who I really am, the origins of what happens to me, the fact that everything occurs for a predestined reason. If you are afraid too, it's not always your fault. Sometimes people stand in your way, they hur...

It was my first time to see a real blossom tree! I literally cried. It's too beautiful. I am definitely a spring personage. I used to be fun, careless summer girl but I've changed substantially. I mean, spring does give me this ethereal bliss that makes me wake up in the morning with a smile as I hear the chirps of the blackbirds and the foreign migrating ones, smell the fragrances of blossoming calyxes as well as the clairvoyant colours of sunshine! I literally breathe in the life of spring, let it paint me in peach, pink and ultramarine blue. I was going to write a post about things I want to improve about myself, but then I felt obliged to express gratitude and joy about the arrival of spring here.. it's certainly February still, but I've seen patches of dandelions erupting, and that is certainly a sign of the warmer and more beautiful days awaiting. :) I'm so thankful that the bitter, cold days are over, and I'm willing to be better this spring; m...

A dose of sunrises. I usually detest Januaries because they are beginnings, empty beginnings that open a book of blank white pages ready to be filled with memories, moments of happiness and sadness. This whole feeling of emptiness agitates me, and makes me anxious because I have no idea how to fill the book with worthwhile words and captivating occurrences.. and yes, as I had expected, I lived through the first weeks of January in anxiety and confusion. I didn't know where I was going, there were no signs, the obscurities never unravelled, they stayed vague through the chilly days and fearful nights. Two weeks ago, I was so close to relapsing. I was a silhouette full of darkness, compressed anger and frustration. My energy was busting and exploding fumes that choked me until I grew weak and vulnerable; there was only hatred to feel towards myself. Nothing was enough. There was no pleasure in the accomplishments, in the rising suns and the shimmering stars. Where was I going...

Say you need not life to awaken you. Say you exist aloud in the silence. Say you need not your eyes, To ascertain what's true. Say there is beauty incomparable, One you need not define. Despite the aches in the darkest nights, Say you need not life to survive. As I feel you in my presence alone, You resonate in a dimension so clear. And what not occurs to you,  Affects me wildly. Say you need not a medium, For your words to reach, The depths I have not explored. The distance between our hearts, Is an infinite magnitude of distances, Stretched so wide, so far in the horizons. Say you need not but the two of us, In a sharp awareness of what's lost. You, in loss of what revolves around the earthly, And I, missing everything by your ghost. Say you need not the lyrics of my sleep, To appear among the omens, I recall in the lust of my dreams. I say I need not, but words Amidst a concussion of thoughts To reveal our unearthly co...

I can allow my soul To rupture into a million pieces And form a constellation To light your way home You walk in the shineless street Searching for a meaning A flow to resonate, to set free But the inside of your eyes Is a glimpse of a midnight dream Only thoroughly remembered  When you wake up in tears I'll allow your hand To intertwine with mine Like branches of ivy That stay green all the time Through your soft breathing Along the lyrics of your murmurs A scar will stop bleeding A soul shall be left enraptured We need no boundary nor limit As long as we're guided by the oneness of our spirit We can soar along the shadowy clouds Draw curves against the blue velvet sky Just as you stop believing And your faith burns to ashes We'll follow lightly and touch the ground Walk again, the lightless streets To find purpose in a new path And the many roads on your palm Can only lead us to the home in our hearts.