Realizing My Purpose.

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Since I entered university, I realised that my mind is not compatible with business at all, and that my passions are not quite integrated with economical resonances and commercial laws. Seeing our professors with their narrow-minded pedagogical styles, I knew I was here for a reason; a rather minor reason, compared to my own passion.

I know that we live in a capitalist world and that any idea I might think to introduce to the society must be marketed, and that's why I'm not so mad to be here, studying accounting and economical rules. I know that what I'm learning could be beneficial in the future. I know that business these days, is directly related to teaching.

Yes, I love teaching. I'm afraid of the thought of being a teacher but, it gives me this sweet thrill down my spine. It's hard work, but it's truly amazing to interact with students, give them their all, deal with their problems and merely talk to them. It's an amazing process that involves influence in every step. In Univeristy, im encountering how awful our educational system in Egypt is and it keeps me more motivated, more inspired to change, to teach a generation not only curriculums, but how to use their minds and not take their feelings for granted. I want to teach them how to be human.

In my part time job, I don't usually talk to students much but I hear the teacher I'm assisting talk about them and it enraptures me. These kids still have a lot to learn.. a lot to perceive and it's a thought that makes me want to rush and show them all the goodness in the world. Yes, they might be ignorant for now but that's what I'm striving to change; instilling an awareness so profound to enable deep processing of their world. I love witnessing their improvement, even in their stories and essays, knowing that their minds are growing.. perceiving... learning.

It's a beautiful feeling to have known my purpose, and now I need to work for it, at least until it changes. (I don't trust myself to dwell on one purpose :P) I need to take a masters degree in education and I'm not really sure about that these days.. I need to have another job first to make enough money for this. Meanwhile, I'm keeping up with some interesting teaching courses to enrich my background of this career.

I know that my plans are rather obsolete because, life doesn't go this way. Life is unexpected and sometimes, really successful people end up not working at all, but doing something so deviated but equally fulfilling. Even though I aspire to change Egypt's educational system, I'll be content with being a housewife, or even an accountant. I'm trying to accommodate my mind to accept life's happenings because nothing is ever as it seems.

I lived my childhood completely confused in terms of career options. I grew up seeing my friends engrossed in particular fields like engineering, medicine, science.. etc. but I was always so uncertain. I'm glad I know what I really want to do now, it's such a satisfying sensation and I'm forever grateful.
I always knew I wanted to change the world for the better, I hope God helps me through this and give me opportunities to beautify the world He created.

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  1. Haphazard Evolution15/04/2017, 23:04

    Hey! So are you studying education? And if so is it with the focus on certain subjects that you will one day teach in school?
    Hazel

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    1. Soraya16/04/2017, 06:36

      Unfortunately, I'm not studying education just yet, but taking online teaching courses. If I will take my masters, it won't be focused on a certain subject but the art of teaching as a whole. But i plan on either teaching English or biology in the future, haven't decided yet. :) are you a teacher?

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  2. Haphazard Evolution16/04/2017, 11:47

    Ok, so after the online courses are you able to do your masters? English or biology do both sound good. Biology was one of my favorite subjects in school. I'm studying medicine and have just finished my second year but it will take another four years before I will actually be a doctor.

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    1. Soraya16/04/2017, 12:34

      The masters I'm planning on taking are for everyone who is interested in either becoming a school principle or teacher. It's a diploma so you can work without studying education in a university. But I'm talking about Egypt and this system may not be applicable in other countries. I love biology, too! I used to spend hours researching on protein structures and the many other miracles in our cells and plants, too. It's so fascinating. I was actually going to go to med school before I changed my mind. Nice to meet you!

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