a daylight dream

September was transformational and I could write and write about how it turned my world around. Everything I had been experiencing since the beginning of the year was leading me to this relief and lightness that is taking over me. It was beautiful to be alive in September. It didn't start so joyfully, though. The first days of September was marked by tears and sobs of helplessness because I felt so low. I can't explain why. I just didn't feel like myself at all. However, I found access to a stream of knowledge through a book called Becoming Supernatural by Dr. Joe Dispenza, which guided me to know so much about our universe and so many fundamental beliefs that are crucial to uncover the nature of our humanity. Through this book, I went deep into my soul and released pain and let in dreams and selfless ambitions that make me soar.   Before my flight back to Egypt, I worked on being more intimate and close to my sister. I apologised for my distance, studied w

-on 15.09.2019- Autumn has deeply embodied itself into my heart, as I consciously and heartily observed those yellow-crimson crisp leaves fall on our planet’s ground. Some of those leaves even fall on my shoulder, my hands have held them and sensed their wrinkled surface, dry round the edges, full of forsaken life in their very core. Because we are a reflection of who we think we are, I was deeply afraid of autumn. How would it be like to see life saying goodbye? Melancholic, of course. How would it be like to wake up and find it dark and the air scented frosty from the cold? The thought alone made my heart recoil in shivers. But today I am heading on that airplane back to Egypt. I cried, perhaps more out of love and gratitude than fear. I cried remembering every moment, every wisp of love lacing the entirety of that wistful summer. I cried as I embraced my sister and mother. My heart collapsed onto itself and it felt right. I remembered the pine trees and all of t

It’s late into the night and you’re not at home but I’m in our little plant-laden balcony, my eyes fixated on the vast space before me; on those little glittery stars flickering in haphazard frequencies that I am very fond of— aligning with the very depth of my heart. And it’s okay that you’re not at home. Dearest, I respect this distance. We’ve been distant for a long time and it didn’t weaken our unearthly bond. We have agreed upon the notion of us treading disparate paths, yet always bound by love. So it’s okay, my dear.  You never have to be here so that we can be together. I place my hands on my heart. I close my eyes and allow the canvas of our sky to lay still and silent in my mind. Gently, I place my head on the pillow and drift into a mystical sleep, filled with peace and quiet, breaths that leave my chest to let go fears and bring in love. The first thing I wake up to is the sound of the blackbirds chirping against the faint peachy rays of light emerging away

A few days ago, I woke up and went directly outside of the bed, like I always do. But as my feet touched the ground, I felt something different in the way I was moving. I went to the sofa and closed my eyes—  it was happening again. My eyes started tearing up as I sensed this swelling, the approaching brain fog, this feeling of helplessness and hopelessness creeping to my mind. I didn’t want to face it. I wished I could just go back to bed and rewind the night because the day is long and how would I ever be able to make this day beautiful like this, in  this  state? I closed my eyes and tried to remember love. It didn’t work. I spent an hour researching quick fixes to remove the bloat, to improve my mood, to make me feel better. Because today, I want to love the people around me. I want to think of something other than just this stupid sensation of not being well because I was tired of it. I was sick of it. I cried again because I was so scared to face my day. What

Hello everyone and welcome back to a new Limitless Learning post! So, September is here and it looks like most of you are on the verge of starting a new academic year, whether you're in university or at school. But, I assure you, this academic year is not going to be like any other academic year.. it will be special, meaningful and shining with success and achievement. Because of that, I am here to give you some tips to make sure you start your academic year in the best way possible to ensure success and most importantly, joy. Here are 6 tips you can start implementing to kick start the new academic year in the best way! 1. Set Goals! The best way to start your academic year is to set goals that you'd like to achieve for the year, at least for the first term or semester. I'm not talking about normal goals but holistic ones which encompass your whole school experience. What grades do you want to achieve in your tests and quizzes? How do you want to study? What

And so it is the last day of August. The last page to write describing this beautiful summer. The window of a mysterious pathway of healing and ethereal, authentic love. August was a month in which I harvested the magical fruits of the seeds I have planted since June. Of course, it is only the first harvest, still the seeds are not strong enough, the ground not richly fertile; but they are luscious fruits and they're all beuatiful and young. I am proud of how wonderfully they have grown this summer. Okay, enough with those metaphors. The past years proved that August is a month to experience pain, but I didn't intend it this time around. There is pain in August, but I redirected my focus to somehow accept that yes, it's time to say goodbye to all of those wonderful, summery memories. However, there are other fulfilling aspects that have to be remembered and honoured. I have worked hard for so many things and I wanted to witness them evolve and show me the mag

I pretend to forget to draw the curtains every night before we go to sleep, because something in me just wants to watch the car-lights reflect on our golden walls just before we fade to the darkness of our minds in the hours of the night. My eyes just desire to wake up each morning with the sun shining brightly, and I don’t want to sleep in,  ever , with such a blessing to witness every single day. And this morning, I wake up to a ray of light streaming in a straight line towards the mirror, and my eyes follows its reflection in a daze, till I land on a beautiful tiny rainbow on our desks. I smile— and I hope it’s an omen to make our day as colourful as we possibly can. And then I look at you, dearest, facing me, your gentle eyes asleep and I can see your imperfections clearly. Just a few summers ago, this moment was a dream— and now I wake up to watch you breathe. And then I think to myself— I touch my face and I realise   I’m so imperfect, too. I imagine you open your ey

Greetings, my loved ones. Today's post is going to tackle an issue which had always resonated with me, a journey I knew I was going to start some day in the future. It looks like its time has come at last, as I am experiencing this inclination towards it. I want to find my voice. Like many of you, I grew up in a place where my voice was belittled. I was not allowed to say "no", to speak up and show my honest opinions and beliefs. I grew up to believe that what I said didn't matter because it wasn't respected; my truth wasn't always honoured. This led me as a young child to manipulate this situation through telling lies, hiding, pretending and covering up. In my head, it used to save me from having to deal with the consequences of confrontation but on the long-term, it didn't really protect me. I know many of us have to deal with this. This situation is not only portrayed through our families but in other instituions like schools and univer

As I've promised, here is part II for the Infinite Learning  post series. You can read the first part here . Before we start,  I want to thank you all for your massive support for the first part. I truly appreciate your feedback. Let us briefly recap what we discussed last time. So, there were 4 steps which were: 1. Change your mindset towards the process of learning and perceive it differently. 2. Visualise and imagine what you are learning to engage more senses to make what you are learning more experential and personal. 3. Use emotions like excitement, mystery and the thrill accompanied by challenges to retain more of what you learn. 4. Be inquisitive and use the art of curiosity to think beyond and add depth to what you are learning. Here are another 3 steps to transform your learning experience! I am very excited for you to be reading this. Now, let's get started! 5. Lead Your Time I said  "lead"  your time, not  "manage"  

Greetings, my loved ones. Today, I want to write about miracles. Yes, miracles. The miracle of a dream coming true. Do not worry, it's not as abstract. I actually have a story in regards to that. My journey started in January 2017 , when I was still in my first year of university, disliking the torpidity and lack of things to do. For a restless person, having to just study and go for lectures every now and then did not appeal to me. I wanted something more, something deeper and more challenging. On the first day of 2017, I told God that I really want to work and do something meaningful. I asked Him to give me a chance to experiment and discover what it's like to be out there . Very abruptly, I was granted an award for attaining the highest grade in Egypt in my Biology A Level course, which gave me the opportunity to work with my old Biology teacher as her assistant, and then it all rolled around to work in a school as an English language co-teacher. It