Finding Our Voice.

Greetings, my loved ones. Today's post is going to tackle an issue which had always resonated with me, a journey I knew I was going to start some day in the future. It looks like its time has come at last, as I am experiencing this inclination towards it.

I want to find my voice.

Like many of you, I grew up in a place where my voice was belittled. I was not allowed to say "no", to speak up and show my honest opinions and beliefs. I grew up to believe that what I said didn't matter because it wasn't respected; my truth wasn't always honoured. This led me as a young child to manipulate this situation through telling lies, hiding, pretending and covering up. In my head, it used to save me from having to deal with the consequences of confrontation but on the long-term, it didn't really protect me.

I know many of us have to deal with this. This situation is not only portrayed through our families but in other instituions like schools and universities, even workplaces as we grow older. We are conditioned and socialised to conform in many areas, and sometimes this comes with the risk of losing our voice, losing the outlet of our truths, in order to fit in or avoid the consequences. How do you know that this has affected you? Well, it can be heard from your voice. It shakes when you have to tell the truth about something you have been hiding or ashamed to reveal. You find yourself in silence, not aware of the right words to say. The first resort when it comes to confrontation could be this action of sugarcoating what is uncomfortable, so that you don't create a ruckus and disturb the peace. You have lived a life full of conflict and when peace prevails for a while, you want to harness and protect it, with all that you've got.

I believe we were granted this life to constantly move towards a place of balance, to find our way home. And here comes my turn to go back home, where my voice is empowered, strong and unwavering. A time in which I can say whatever I believe in, without fear, without second-guessing the authenticity of my heart. I believe in my heart's kindness and assertiveness. I trust that it always knows what is right, even it means making mistakes, because it is honest enough to learn from them and walk away from the consequences.

Let us just think about it. What could possibly happen? What are the consequences if what you are doing is righteous, fearless and brave? There is no fear when it comes to honesty, and if we are afriad of it, then perhaps we should do more work to explore who we truly are. We should do more work to dive into the depth of our identity, to find what we believe in, see our purpose and passions clearly, so that when we speak up for them, we are only mirroring the genuine. We are mirroring boundless love towards ourselves, the way God has created us, and what is more honest and freeing than accepting the way God has made you?

As I have come to realise this, my voice is stronger. I can talk from a place of trust and peace rather than fear and confusion because I have shed down layers of false beliefs and defense mechanisms to protect someone I am not. And now, when I am faced with criticisms and harsh words, they don't affect me and I respond with logic and practicality, or choose not to respond at all. I have found that assertiveness grows when you make a choice to drop out from an argument that involves the ego, and let it die down by reflecting all of the light within you, so that the other side can always face its own issues, negativity and false beliefs. In that way, you are not being selfish but rather selfless, you are omitting yourself from a conversation to allow the other to be whole and face the truth. You are guiding them towards their own home. It is uncomfortable, yes. However, you need to decide whether it is finally time for you embrace strength and assertiveness or still lay low, pretending that there is no light in you.

Do not ever underestimate the time and effort you have put into growing. What is the purpose of all this, if you do not speak from a place of clarity and truth after all what you've been through? But please, be aware that you still have got a long way, and you will make mistakes with your voice. You will realise that even now, there are some false beliefs. It's not over yet. 

Keep asserting yourself. I know it's hard. How do you stand up in front of your caretakers, teachers and prominent figures in society? You don't have to stand up, you are already in that place. You are already in ascension. You already are.

Be one with your voice, dearest ones. May it always be a voice of love rather than fear. May it always be a voice that empowers others to find their way home.