a daylight dream

Greetings, my loved ones. Today, I want to write about miracles. Yes, miracles. The miracle of a dream coming true. Do not worry, it's not as abstract. I actually have a story in regards to that. My journey started in January 2017 , when I was still in my first year of university, disliking the torpidity and lack of things to do. For a restless person, having to just study and go for lectures every now and then did not appeal to me. I wanted something more, something deeper and more challenging. On the first day of 2017, I told God that I really want to work and do something meaningful. I asked Him to give me a chance to experiment and discover what it's like to be out there . Very abruptly, I was granted an award for attaining the highest grade in Egypt in my Biology A Level course, which gave me the opportunity to work with my old Biology teacher as her assistant, and then it all rolled around to work in a school as an English language co-teacher. It...

When I suggested to write a post on how to make your learning experience more effective, I was surprised to see that 100% of you who participated in the poll voted for a YES! I am very honoured to be writing this down, collecting my experience, learnings and beliefs into a structured elaboration. Let's get started. You might have heard about the word learning, but mostly education is what is linked to it if you're a standard school student. But, we need to make a distinction. Successful education cannot truly occur without learning; because education is merely the process that happens through institutions like schools and universities. But, learning is a personal experience that strengthens and expands what is being educated and takes it to the outside world. The world has now changed, and is demanding more than ever that learning takes place every single day, not just in school. The world's system demands more than ever that you become a life-lon...

On the first day of love, we are sat down on the wooden, bare floor of our little home. A pool of shadowed light rests on our feet, and we extend our toes to touch it in playfulness and joy. It’s our very first morning together and though it would have been more comfortable to sleep through the early hours, intuition carried us to that spot, in front of the balcony window, the clouds accumulated by the horizon of that little ordinary sky. And we are waiting— waiting for a moment so spectacular, one that we have reiterated in our dreams. And we wonder in doubt, will it be the same? Will it be as unearthly and captivating? Or were our hearts carried away by a draft of summery love? We sit still, eyes partly closed, minds wandering realms of our visions. But slowly and then all at once, it hits me— this wave of restlessness, this tide which washes me every single time, the racing heart beats, shallow breaths and unbearable tendency to stand up and just do something—  anyt...

Before reflecting upon July's beauty, I want to thank you all for choosing this space and sharing this love. Truly, receiving your feedback and comments make my day and inspire me to write more content that you can deeply relate to, to somehow add value to your life. Thank you! Today is the last day of July, which is somehow fascinating. Time goes by so fast for the first 8 months of the year, personally. Let me emphasise a belief of mine, which states that we are all connected in a way or another. July's energy was playful and risky, wasn't it? Observing close ones around me, I noticed that we are collectively saying "yes" to more things, as a gateway towards more adventures and experiences. Perhaps some of you did not have any realistic risks, yet you may have delved into mesmerising emotions and feelings, which is counted as a risk, as well. In July, I was reborn. Truly. I may preach about the idea of letting go but this is seemingly something that I ...

Greetings, my loved ones. I wanted to update you with how things are going recently, in regards to my journey towards health and wellness, ultimately learning how to take care of my body and its beauty. I mentioned my healing plans here , but I must tell you that they have changed completely. In the middle of June, I did some blood work to see where the problem resides. I presumed that it would be my fluctuating thyroid hormone levels as well as all the other hormones I had problems with. When I got my results, I was surprised to see that my thyroid hormone levels were great, which made me relieved, because it’s so difficult to fix a raging thyroid. The problem was my progesterone. I had extremely low levels, probably the same as three years ago, even though they were better last summer. Despite the frustration, I was also relieved to know the answer and the head-start, to do it all again, perhaps with more clarity. Through my readings, I realised that many women st...

This is going to be a highly personal and rather painful reflection, but I’m going to write it down in hope that you can also relate. And you all know that my purpose is to bring to light experiences that we humans have to go through in order to break free from restraints, limitations and boundaries to truly live a meaningful, beautiful life. And little did I know that this whole beauty involved death. I might have poetically envisioned it, but I was unaware that such an experience could be real and powerful, even painful. Let me start with that late September evening last year, when I walked into my balcony to take a moment to observe my surroundings. Instantly, I noticed my geranium plants in the southern corner of the balcony with a strange hue, a rather faded complexion and structure. I looked closely and touched their leaves— They were wilting. It took me by surprise because, geraniums don’t normally wilt so early; I was even looking forward to enjoy their gre...

A few days ago, I turned twenty-one. It was an ordinary birthday, that kind of slow-weekend, where we went out to do grocery shopping for our upcoming trip and just idled around watching movies and nothing else in particular. But it’s not that what truly matters. I’m here because, on my twenty-first birthday, I felt that I was loved . It touched me deeply and all of the pain and struggle of feeling unloved just resurfaced. My heart was beating, chest clenching and I had this bizarre sensation radiating around me. It was beautiful, it was like life was proving to me that all of those fears which tell me that I am alone and totally separated from everyone I know were wrong. They were lies my ego was feeding me to hold on to my restlessness and constant strive to attain perfection. I have received many beautiful wishes from people I don’t know and ones that I do. I used to think that I was a very lonely person, but it turned out that so many kind people cared enough to sim...

light from faded beams, visit our distant eyes, illuminating our beloved sky. her touch is grace, and she topples the clouds, straight forward to our chests. and while we lay, on the soft green, we feel everything, to become one with our dreams. and everyday, we appear on silent nights, peeking gently for her light, seeing her less and less, but we remember that oneness, she blessed into our hearts, for without her, we would be spread apart. at times when we lose touch, and she is in the sky, i recall her fullness, and fading light. perhaps its within those phases, we are meant to unite, then may time pass, and unravel secrets of life. where is she? she is the moon. surprisingly, you will see her soon, adorning the sky, in darkness and in light, fearless and free, against the ordinary night. and i understand how it must be, to grow closer to her, for she captures beauty, so vivid to remember, and she w...

Just yesterday a friendly thought came to me and I was surprised at how oblivious I had been even though I am certain I was deeply aware of it before. I think sometimes, we instil ourselves with values and dreams but then go through something difficult and tend to totally forget who we were before. That’s basically something that occurred to me. Last September, remembering very vividly, I decided to step outside to the world and be perfect. I had enough of being lenient and compassionate with my flaws so I thought to change my mindset a little. It was energising and drove me into a state of unstoppable ambition which reignited hidden potentials and dreams to be translated to reality. However, trying to constantly perfect myself in terms of hard work, professionalism and attitude tapped me into the mindset of focusing on what I lacked. Every single day, I’d go out there and think deeply on my mistakes, trying not to make them happen again. The thing is, I made mistakes. Every si...