my life is a gift.
For a few months now, I’ve been holding myself back from expressing myself fully. Being in the stream of love, I was reduced to nothingness, weakened by the smallness of my being. There were moments that words crumbled as they tried to depict meaning, and so I patiently addressed this by staying reverently silent, repressing the currents in my heart despite their majestic unfolding.
Last morning, I found myself doubting my efforts. I found myself so scared that I wouldn’t be loved or accepted by God. Was I doing all this with fear so secretly and inscrutably bound to my existence?
I want to share my deepest fear— my gift. My gift of seeing things in true essence. My gift of healing. My gift of empathy. My gift of creative service. My gift of elusive, inspiring expression of being. My gift of loving people and all creation.
In essence, this is God’s gift. This is an answer to someone’s prayer and a perfect manifestation of divine will and love.
I oppressed myself by believing I was not good enough compared to God’s majesty, but God.. there is something to do in this world. How aghast it feels to wake up and feel like there’s nothing enough on the shorelines of worldly doings. But there is. There is.
I misunderstood it all. I thought that my active aliveness was a representation of egoistic pride and selfishness. But it’s not. This is God’s gift, and it is holy, sacred and reverent. I am to protect it with all my might.
I pray that I remain gentle with my heart and embrace my fears gently— always choosing love. I open my heart to wondrous blessings and gifts.. my life is a gift.
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