Guiltily Grateful.

Lately, I’ve been focusing on the abundant energy in our world. I was trying to figure out how different it is from the aspect of scarcity, where everything lacks and isn’t enough. Most of us view the world in terms of how scarce resources and opportunities are and unconsciously disregard that there is another perspective so magical and ever-flowing, which is abundance.

Abundance means viewing the world and your environment with the eyes that there is enough for everyone. There is enough food, air, water, opportunities, health, jobs, money, relationships— everything in general. It’s letting go of the restriction that reigns the competition nowadays and thinking in terms that growth is exponential and compounded, and you can always gain more and more if you set your mind to and go through the adversities willingly.

With this mindset, for a few days, I realised how abundant blessings are. Not personally, but in the world. In our Earth. This immense energy that is withheld within the light rays, our soil, our oceans and rivers and human potential. All of these things combined make an endless stream of blessings to capture and beauty to consider. I’ve been seeing it in the food in the markets, the art humans portray, their kindness, the organisations we have built— there is enough for everyone. It’s not a competition if you view it that way. Perhaps it’s only a share of resources that we are given, and fate allows that to be done in an intricate and inscrutable manner. We will never know why, exactly, someone has got their share of health but not money. The contradictions exist, but I think this is how life keeps varying within every family, to make each human experience unique and a story to tell.

With this abundance though, I suddenly felt guilty, which is a feeling associated with scarcity. It felt too overwhelming to even have a share of those resources a little bit easily and I felt undeserving towards them. Summer usually floods the land with more produce and to see it flowing into the house, to see the amount of fresh fruits and vegetables, it just makes me feel so conscious about it all, when other people exist out there having less to eat. I felt this deep gratitude within me, but it was also mixed with a sense that I should really do something to give back and call it an act of reciprocity.

So much is happening in the world at the moment. The political and social arena is flaming with highly-opinionated ideas that consume the societies they originate from. Some people get caught in those flames and cannot find ways to fulfil their basic needs, and I feel deeply wretched for that. To put myself in comparison with all what’s happening out there— it makes me speechless.

But I think this is why we should feel grateful, perhaps not guilty, but deeply connected to the blessings that encompass us. They are there for a reason, and perhaps it’s a compelling drive to allow us to giveback in any way possible. The world seems to work in a reciprocal manner and it’s our responsibility to get this energy moving and expanding in our world, to create more opportunities to be kind and release our creativity and energy, in the best way possible.

If you’re reading this, I am sure you are blessed enough. There is enough, always. We are responsible to fulfil this adequacy as we can, by pouring out our full potential to those who need, because we believe more will come flowing at us. This value is intangible, and it will never run dry, once it originated from your ideals and mindsets, rather than material resources.

And this value will forever change our society, at least from our perspective, and that is the compelling force that will make you a fuller person. And that’s perhaps everything.