Through Pain Comes Beauty.

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A period of rampant observation struck me, as I analysed the different human happenings surround us all. I realised that all jovial, successful moments emerged from pain. All note-worthy experiences have birthed from ones that were chaotic and confusing at first. It seems that this is a universal truth.

I can see this truth before me, manifested into the universe. The anticipation and darkness of night is followed by a glimmering sunrise, a birth of a child does not happen unless a mother labours in pain, we all learn and grow from mistakes and truly love when challenged and brought to our weaknesses in honest vulnerability.

Pain does inflict our hearts, sometimes searingly. It cowers our potentials for a while and makes us so unsure and unstable yet, it transforms us. It transforms the universe as a whole. It brings about a potential for change and reformation— a threshold on which beauty is able to unfold and take shape. This is so beautiful to consider and to even think about, instilling within us a deeper understanding of how the universe works.

I often find myself scared of pain. But, I believe that the presence of intense pain in my life has allowed magic to evolve in the simple happenings of every day. The pain in love has made it more pure, gentle and akin to a patient river to be soaked by. The pain in reality made nature more alluring and representative of values that do not exist freely in the ordinary.

Pain digs in deeper into our very own souls. It draws holes and tunnels that light can reach, allowing us to transcend and be truly free.

Sometimes I wonder whether painful experiences are worthwhile. They do sabotage us for a while. They leave scars behind and imprint them into our minds and memories that are not very easy to be let go of. We are human after all; we have many complex thoughts that we attach ourselves to, to keep on functioning and living with agility and tact. It requires deep intelligence to let go, completely, to remove that translucent sheath and be the light.

Pain is a blessing. It allows the ego to diminish, in order to avoid suffering. It makes you strong, graceful and confident. It makes you a story, a poem, a portrayal of nature. It makes you nature itself— why should we avoid it?

Perhaps I am experiencing pain, which leaves me sore and inflamed but I am sure this will only make me more able to love unconditionally and to reach a deeper understanding of life. It will make me kind. It will make me beautiful.

There is no resistance. There is no pressure. Just mindful patience and a hope— an ethereal hope for more meaning and love in our little ephemeral lives.

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