Truth.

The closest we could get to truth is to demand it from ourselves, with honesty, integrity and trust. There is no truth more soulful and clairvoyant.

I used to lie to myself. I used to judge my needs critically and negate them, just for the sake of being someone I wasn’t meant to be. Someone free of demands, rights and connections. I wanted to exist but didn’t want to face people’s rejection and resistance.

But the truth is that we all need something, and we lie to ourselves by believing we will attain that need some time later— next year, when we graduate, get a job, get married, get sick and thereof. We believe that our intuition is merely a nagging voice that we should discard to keep living in our lies, because they’re comfortable and easy to confront compared to the truth.

But the truth is liberating and so inadvertently real. It exists within us all, crosses our minds and leaves till we finally pay attention. Because the truth will always reveal itself, its signs and maps are already there to visualise and take notice of. So often we will be reminded of the fact that we need to stop believing in those lies, but we are too busy and attached to the mainstream.

I decided to face truth every single night, before going to sleep. I visualise my day and see the sources of resistance and conflict, just to realise the truth emerging from it all. Sometimes it’s a fear I need to overcome, a habit hiding underlying impurities of soul— they’re all things I should break free from to release my full potential to the universe.

I’m working on it and it’s not easy. We’ve been fed lies since we were kids, asked to put on masks to hide away and fit in, conform blindly, judge, criticise and pamper our egos. They’re all lies— just lies.

So much truth buds from actually seeing things the way you want to see them, with your own soulful perception. This is truth— to be a free individual, with a liberated mind and a guided heart. There’s no strength greater than being able to reflect and take action to make things better when they’re wrong. Because truth will allow you to see before knowing and judging. It will urge you to listen and interpret things completely without restraints. It will make things clearer, but not until you practise it.

So every night I practise truth and it’s overwhelming to find out how irrelevant our limits are, how probably stubborn and lacerating. I will seek it, till life leads me to it.