a daylight dream

February had been magical, and I say that every month but it had truly been transforming for me. The weather is warmer, the south eastern winds are taking charge, allowing the golden breezes to follow. Everybody says spring winds are usually green, but in February, they're rather golden, carrying the fragrances of tropical rainforests from the south; fresh rain and grass, alluring humidity and clouds. It's so beautiful to feel the world anticipating the change, acting a little timid and afraid to let all of those winter routines go... but it will embrace it soon enough and burst in rapture. :) My anxiety levels dropped down too quickly and sometimes, it's difficult to believe that I'm still me. I'm not worried at all, I'm living and loving the present moment and exerting what I can to make the best out of it. Some days are good, others are unproductive and hazy, but overall, all's good. I feel as if the world is ready to accept my difference, and tha

Hello friends! It's been a busy week and I enjoyed it immensely even though I didn't have enough time to rejuvenate.. I usually relax by stretching my body and writing poetry. But it was a helpful change, I'm so glad that the world around me is aspiring to help me to embrace the change and learn from it. I must admit it's a beautiful experience. :) Last year was tough; I was drowning in rough waters of self-hate and the tribulations of recovery. However, it had been a year to learn from, to improve and grow. I've always had problems with concentration and focus and I had worked on it painstakingly the past year. Through studies, I tried to focus, concentrate, allow my mind to widen its scope in an efficient way and it had been amazing. I didn't know that our minds can create such wonders! You can empower your mind and trust it because it's overflowing with capabilities and potentials. Once you feed your thoughts with enrapturing and intriguing ideas,

Tell yourself that you're honoured to be alive, to have a pair of eyes that can see through the blueness of the sky, freeness of the birds, flow of the waters. You have a pair of ears that can hear soft melodies, laughs of loved ones, chirping birds, and enchanting quotes being read to you at night. You have a voice that can speak beauty, truth, positivity and charm. You are granted with blessings and acknowledging them satisfies the many quests of happiness. You are honoured with your skin that enjoys the warmth, scrutinises the chills, allows you to feel love through the touch of your friends and family, makes you dextrously create art with your fingertips, makes you draw and colour, write life-changing sentences and affirmations. You can choose to be kind in this ruthless world. You can choose to love in a society based on hate and criticism. You are unique with your beliefs, values and personality. Stand up and show yourself, some people will shame and hurt you, but othe

You exist. You breathe. You are a universe of overflowing energies. And these energies should make you feel warm, connected, grounded. These feelings should make you feel like you belong to the world within yourself, because they are your only genuine guide, leading you to the most ultimate pathway you should take. Your intuition is the only thing affected by you, by your own energies, unlike your mind which is exposed to the external environment surrounding you. Your mind shifts constantly and responds to the miscellaneous ideas and thoughts everywhere. However, there's your intuition, the reflection of your soul, your true purpose, your only connection to the divine. Listening to yourself will be the best possible decision you can take. Taking your random feelings for granted will lead you to losing your ground, your heart will no longer connect with your mind, and you will be detached from your purpose, your passion, your existence. Trust your body. Feed it when it'

Dreams are usually my dearest form of company. Too many nights before I sleep, I imagine myself translating those dreams into reality, feeling the sheer pleasure and enthusiasm as I become the person I wish I could be. However, at times my dreams overwhelm me and I become too attached to them.. the ambition turns to a troublesome anxiety that keeps me restless and turns my goals into perfectionistic realities that don't usually occur in real life.. I become restless, lost in terms of what I'm supposed to do to make those dreams come true. I spend the night planning my days to be more productive and achievement-oriented, but most of the time, they never go as planned. I am ambitious, and it is a blessing. I love conquering the hardships, pushing myself past my zeal passionately, going through enjoyable experiences. My dreams shift from being a teacher to a headmistress, a holistic nutritionist.. a life coach.. a therapist.. an adventurous naturalist.. and my head swirls u

These past few weeks have been miraculously amazing, and finally, I got the change I've been  craving for a long time. And to be honest, those little adventures make life incredibly worthwhile. Firstly, I have changed both emotionally and physically. I'm no longer so anxious about those minute details of the future and instead, letting things go accordingly to God's will. I have shifted my focus on the present moment and the little joys that purify my heart from the inside. An illustration would be that I haven't studied at all this winter vacation and I don't feel so nervous about it. I mean, what is the point of reading textbooks you're not enjoying? I am not interested in reading about management or economical resources to be honest, and my past self would have made me put my nose in those books, wasting time doing nothing beneficial. I'm taking my time relishing the sunshine in the balcony, writing poems and chapters of my story, reading some nice book

I used to fear a lot of things in my life. I used to fear the future. I felt so small, so disabled and vulnerable in the world of my tomorrow. Fear made me believe that there were no opportunities in my future, and that I'd remain the person I am today. I pictured myself in a world full of competition, poverty, war and distrust. How was I going to overcome the obstacles with the dreams of the present? The elements of my personality? The truth is, fear didn't allow me to hope. I couldn't imagine that I would flourish in the days leading to that future, I would be exposed to numerous experiences, opportunities to grow, succeed and fail. There was room to learn but being afraid made me run away and hide, adhere to my weaknesses and shame them, instead of accepting who I really am, the origins of what happens to me, the fact that everything occurs for a predestined reason. If you are afraid too, it's not always your fault. Sometimes people stand in your way, they hur

It was my first time to see a real blossom tree! I literally cried. It's too beautiful. I am definitely a spring personage. I used to be fun, careless summer girl but I've changed substantially. I mean, spring does give me this ethereal bliss that makes me wake up in the morning with a smile as I hear the chirps of the blackbirds and the foreign migrating ones, smell the fragrances of blossoming calyxes as well as the clairvoyant colours of sunshine! I literally breathe in the life of spring, let it paint me in peach, pink and ultramarine blue. I was going to write a post about things I want to improve about myself, but then I felt obliged to express gratitude and joy about the arrival of spring here.. it's certainly February still, but I've seen patches of dandelions erupting, and that is certainly a sign of the warmer and more beautiful days awaiting. :) I'm so thankful that the bitter, cold days are over, and I'm willing to be better this spring; m