a daylight dream

I don't really know what to say here, but I decided to open this note and write whatever comes to my mind. I think today is going to be significant because it's a new tale to tell. It's the closure of years of preparation, visualization and hope and the beginning to years and years experimenting, tailoring, succeeding and failing. A beginning to years of asserting who I am and the purpose programmed within my very cells.   capturing the light in the early morning before my lectures :) I thought I wanted to strive for excellence and greatness, but I reevaluated how much that really matters. I spent a few years trying, but it got me nowhere really, just exasperated the pain and shame that comes with not feeling enough and dreading the failure that comes with every trial, just to prove that I can do it and succeed. I want to own my new beginning. I don't want to pretend I am someone else, someone in the future who has perhaps come a long way. I am no one but me, starting o

Greetings, everyone. Since August is bidding us goodbye so soon and summertime memories are to be written in books and sealed with light and grace, I am here to share some tracks which could make the last days of your summer a little bit more unearthly than usual.  My taste in music is quite thematic and infused with lyrical imagery. I enjoy all songs which are quiet yet cascade genuineness with every lyric and every beat. I am quite prone to listen to indie music for it's touching and poetic, adding sensitivity to my perception of the world. You can find the playlist here , and here are some lines of my favourite lyrics. (: - the tallest man on earth: then i won’t sing no more   “I love you, dear, be safe, you know” - the tallest man on earth: i love you, it’s a fever dream  “but I’ll keep the hope I carry, everywhere so I can love, wherever I go now”  “but we will travel past the beating rain and be graceful after all” - the paper kites: arms  “what can I give that is all for you

what seems to be a hardship turns out to be the greatest blessing with time. trust more. gratitude, even for the things you don't yet have, manifests miracles and abundance. stay true to your heart and feel deeply, cry if you have to, but turn to God to help you. it's very important to apologise when you make mistakes. it's right to fight for your self-worth. it's right to express how you would rather hear more about how to improve rather than be humiliated. it's right to fight for your inherent strengths.   everything starts with believing in, having faith in, staying true to and loving yourself. restlessness doesn't change anything. all you have is the present moment. I know you're trying to make many connections and stay social, but growing your circle too much, especially virtually, exhausts you. it's okay to value quality over quantity when it comes to your social life. love is an action; it's a way of being. love can be maintained despite the p

And if I could have one secret language, it would be honesty. In a world where there are so many things to believe, it's often unclear what the truth really means. In this case, it pacifies me to resort to unspoken honesty. Because some of the most inherent truths cannot be spoken for. A resemblance to be found in how the sunflowers, brightest stars, the most patient planets, energetic electrons and frequent wavelengths never have to pretend to be anything else but what they are. Most truths are unspoken, yet genuinely portrayed. Without them, Life in the core of this universe fades and everything fails to exist. And if I could speak the language of stars, planets, electrons and light, then I'd be  silent . If I could speak the language of truthful silence, I'd be in love. For when in love, one can  be : genuinely, truthfully. One can encompass inherent calls for purpose and dreams. One can unconditionally exist, with nothing in return, a Life force filling the vessel it ch