Thoughts On Health.
My sanctuary. |
Sour apples :) |
Coming to my mind and soul, I cannot feel more grateful for the blessing to actually feel at peace. I have to say that my anxiety and worrisome dispositions are becoming so rare! Yes I do feel anxious sometimes, especially around food, but wonderfully, a voice I never heard before tells me that's it's okay, and that blabbering devilish other voice does not reside within me, it's just an old apparition, and I believe it because I really want to. I want to be okay again, which is really new. I've recognised that I don't have a problem to stop playing sports for a day or two as well, I mean, I used to practice for 2-3 hours everyday last year but I'm content with 2 hours 3-4 times a week now. I usually swim, and relax my body totally. I take deep breaths and do some stretching exercises every 10 minutes, which amounts my real sport time to 1 hour and a half or so. The days where I actually stay at home, I do vinyasa yoga which is spirit-lifting, relaxing and energy-busting so that I don't really feel hyped for the rest of the day, which is an accomplishment! I also dance a little, and do some stretching workouts for flexibility and posture. All in all, I just burn some of the energy and I'm okay for the rest of the day. :) I must confess that I'm also more daring and fearless these days, I'm not afraid to do what's right and to face change and take life smartly. I like the new me. But then I remembered, I'm always evolving which is amazingly intriguing because then I can feel this new sensation every once in a while.
Sometimes I read my journal which I kept last year, and my heart feels such a deep sorrow, my entries were truly devastating and I realise I was in a very daunted state. I thank God for transitioning my soul into a more accepting, enduring state. AlhamduliAllah.
I'm hopeful. All I really know is that I believe in myself. Also, time.
Soraya.
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