Fading Possibilities.

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There are countless possibilities out there; with every new day there is an opportunity that something new is going to happen, something life-changing and mesmerising. This thought alone somehow never ceases to befuddle me with reflections and an uncontained energy. Every new day marks a new start for something entirely different.

Many of us wake up with this vision of a possibility to turn to life. I personally rise with the sun and the birds, my heart pumping with a glimmer of hope that I’ll be the best version of myself, do any action that brings me closer to my mission on this planet. It exhilarates every cell of my body, it makes me head to do my errands with this untamed smile, even though I don’t really know what to do to attain that.

You’ll often see me smiling when I see people. I recently received a letter from a dear soul telling me that in some way, I make people feel important. Is this my mission? I just really enjoy empowering others with words and tools they can use to realise why they were inherently born in this world. It’s a beautiful thing, really. That’s why, I think, I smile too much when with others, because I just want them to smile back and feel happy for existing, like every interaction with any person is just pure joy. As I am saying this, I realise how ridiculous this sounds, perhaps that’s why I’m letting it all out.


But with all those possibilities we all wake up with, most of them do fade. Most of them merge into the distractions of daily life because, in the end, those possibilities are merely risks that we need to take by trusting our very own heart, which is formidable and utterly insane at times.

But these days, I just feel like I’m enclosed within a bubble or possibilities and my heart is screaming for me to risk it. I keep considering what can go wrong but at the end of the day, I just need to do it. I need to risk it— to bridge this gap between the living inherent hope and stale waters of life. Truly, it is action that will transform this— but action is treacherous, and I have a fear that the consequences shall be quite arduous to bear.

But in this case, we must purify our intentions. We must deeply analyse the purpose of the action we consider to take because it is not really fair for those wonderful possibilities to fade.

It’s a chance for us all to experience the most mesmerising memories, as dreams unravel into chaotic action, on the roads-less-travelled-by.

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